We talkin’ ’bout practice?

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The more I write, the better the writing will get.

The more I photograph, the better my photographs will be.

Practice.

It’s a mantra that I need to incorporate into my approach. I need to “regain” my creativity. I need to reawaken it; I have allowed it to become complacent. My creativity has been binge watching shows on Netflix while eating junk food delivered from Amazon Prime Now and meals delivered by Grubhub, allowing it to never leave the house and rarely leave the couch.

I care about writing. I care about the pens and the notebooks I use. I care about the keyboard that I pound out my thoughts on. I care about the tools of the craft. I need to refocus on the craft itself.

I care about photography. I care about the cameras and, the medium, and the accessories. I love the tools that I have. I care about those tools. I need to refocus on the craft itself.

Five things for the week

Cafe on the Ave

  1. I am not at rest; I am in flux. The rest will come when I am back in Pacific time… I hope.
  2. Been reading a lot about Robin Williams. I… I just don’t know. You just don’t know. You never really do.
  3. White Fang is one of my childhood favorite books, so White Fang (2018) caught my eye while browsing Netflix, last night. Beautiful animation. It was so well done.
  4. I still haven’t gotten the hang of taking better care of myself.
  5. This was a mediocre week. One of those uneventful weeks that help you recalibrate what is good and what is bad.

 

Pho Shizzle

On the last day of the Games, after competition had wrapped up and my team was finished, I had an evening to myself with no commitments. It was such a nice feeling. No commitments.

I did spend some of it catching up with some colleagues from Southern California. I hadn’t seen them in years and there was much to discuss. Friends, talking for hours in a coffee shop… a really good time.

Afterwards, on my solitary walk back to the hotel, I realized that I was hungry so I stopped into Pho Shizzle. Throughout the week, the team and I had fun with the name of the place. Some of them had tried it. So, I decided it was my turn to try.

A solitary meal, eating a bowl full of spicy beef noodle soup and a couple of spring rolls. Time to think to myself, for myself. Time to just stare out the front windows and people watch.

This was the perfect end to that week, that day.

Five things for the week

Took in some tennis on the last day of competition

  1. The past two weeks, working the 2018 Special Olympics USA Games in Seattle, Washington, served as a good shot in the arm for me. The high-paced first half of 2018 had me very stressed out These past two weeks, and spending time watching the fruits of our labor, have me re-energized.
  2. One thing that I (re)learned about myself this week? A lot of my unhappiness comes when I try to fit into the perceived “normal”. This also happens when I go along with a group of people without giving myself a voice and say into what we do. I was happiest when I simply chose to do what I wanted to do, even if it meant separating from the group.
  3. I need to start getting back into the habit of taking a few days for myself either before or after work trips, to explore the area a little more. I have been to Seattle a few times; I love it. It’s gorgeous there.
  4. Lego. Voltron.
  5. Related, this past Season of Voltron: Legendary Defender played like a movie and, I loved every second of it.

South Korea’s win over Germany

I love love loved watching the ROK beat Germany. Loved it. They played so hard, with so much heart, knowing that odds were that they still wouldn’t make it though the group stages. I took a lot from this, specifically the reinforced lesson that you need to give it your all regardless of the outcome.

I started the morning watching both 7 AM (Pacific) World Cup matches, and training some email. I like these types of mornings, especially when traveling, as it gives me a chance to center.

Overall, not a bad day. I wasn’t happy that I was working today but, I also can’t remember the last time I did actually take a full day off of work on by birthday. It used to be nonnegotiable; I simply did not work on my birthday. Even if I had to burn a vacation day to do so. I do need to get back to that mindset. It’s my birthday present to myself and, for the past few years, I have not given myself anything.

The pic (above) is the building where I’ll be stationed for the next week. I’m excited to be a part of this event, working to make the system and the people around it successful. Seeing the signage and the activity of setup is very energizing.

Cloud fields

When the clouds mimic the farmland below. I think this was taken somewhere over Ohio, as it was still early in the flight.

Today was a travel day, IAD>SEA. I’ll be spending the next couple of weeks here, supporting our system’s use during the Special Olympics USA Games.

Five things for the week

Stress eating in the middle of the day

  1. It’s time that I started to write and post more on this blog.
  2. I ate really poorly these past couple of weeks (as the picture of the pizza above, partly reflects). Most of it is due to stress eating and laziness (haven’t cooked as much as I should have). There’s a lot going on, all good, but it’s all wearing me out every day, so quickly.
  3. Every decision I make, every action taken, is for health and happiness. I need to. I need to.
  4. Love/hate relationship with Instagram continues… Lord, it continues.
  5. Ezra Furman’s “Love You So Bad” has a lot of familiarity to it. It’s the kind of track that you might think you heard back in high school, almost a classic, that rings true with all of your youthful feelings of angst and teenage emotions.